by Dale Brethour
(Lyrics from the Son kiss the Son|Kevin Prosch|1994 Vineyard Music)
When you’ve been broken, broken to pieces
And your heart begins to faint
Cause you don’t understand
And when there is nothing to rake from the ashes
And you can’t even walk onto the fields of praise
But I bow down and kiss the Son
Oh, and I bow down and kiss the Son
Poem by Dale Brethour
Brokenness, scar and shards, shattered cuts shaped in multi-dimensional directions
Laying in cast off pieces around me
How am I defined in this state of fragmentation? If I take the next step
will I be cut open again? Exposed?
I’m down as low as I feel I can go
Bruised but layed at His feet with nowhere else to go.
Scars and Shards
This may seem a little different to some but a sense of a reality to another. Sometimes the goodness of our Father is found in the deep places. Sometimes those deep places are places of brokenness. Life can cut you in many directions. If you have journeyed down the road with Jesus in this life then you may have experienced moments like these. The good news is that these are temporary moments that take on the disguise of something that looks eternal but is not. You are not broken pieces of shards cast off on the road of affliction but are a wondrous work held in the potter’s hands. We will bow down to kiss the feet of the One who knows what it is to live in a world like we live in. He is the One who was nailed to a cross, scars and shards, exposed, cast off and beaten. It seemed that all that He had taught and demonstrated at the time of the cross was left in a state of fragmentation. He chose to bow low and kiss the feet of the Father and trust and worship.
When I have faced times like this I have learned to turn to Jesus and look into the cross. I love to meditate on His endurance to surrender all so that I can, by grace, drink of His cup of unending enduring love. I remind myself of all that He has done. I speak to my soul – Hebrews 2:18 – ” For because He Himself [in His humanity] has suffered in being tempted (tested and tried), He is able [immediately] to run to the cry of (assist, relieve) those who are being tempted and tested and tried [and who therefore are being exposed to suffering].” Hebrews 4:15-16 – “For we do not have a High Priest Who is unable to understand and sympathize and have a shared feeling with our weaknesses and infirmities and liability to the assaults of temptation, but One Who has been tempted in every respect as we are, yet without sinning. Let us then fearlessly and confidently and boldly draw near to the throne of grace (the throne of God’s unmerited favor to us sinners), that we may receive mercy [for our failures] and find grace to help in good time for every need [appropriate help and well-timed help, coming just when we need it].”
He always draws us back to His feet, at the throne of worship and bowing low and surrender. Jesus has removed all the barriers so that you and I can walk upon the shards and over the places of affliction so that it becomes a sea of forgetfulness. You will not even remember the details of those days of pain unless Father reminds you so as to have compassion and to help others. If you have been through a season of battles or pain that has left scars, let me assure you that those scars have a purpose. This is an encounter that I had one time when I asked the Lord about. I was standing on a battlefield and the enemy of my soul was coming at me. He had a large spear and was trying to thrust it in the same areas that I had been wounded in before. The spear would not penetrate but the scar remained. Than a glorious light broke forth out of the scar and blinded the enemy and he lost his ability to attack. Then I heard Jesus laugh and He said to the enemy….” You can’t hurt him anymore he is mine! Where you hurt him before, he is healed. My healing is like an armour. You can’t have him anymore!” and then Jesus said to me….”Son, those scars are like a trophy of My goodness that you carry and you have a light that will shine out of that place in your life that you did not have before and it will be healing to others.”
You may be in a place of brokenness within a relationship. The thoughts of deep shame, betrayal, rejection and loss has gripped you. You may have said or done things you have regretted doing. I was in that place at one time. I had lost sight of my position and got caught up in the conditions. It was painful and it was very real at the time. Let me share another encounter that really helped me in the midst of pain.
I was in the midst of an intense verbal argument with someone who had hurt me, emotionally. I was hurtling my pain filled arrows at them and they at me. Every arrow that hit me was like a dart to the heart. Then I saw Jesus step in between me and the other person. He stretched out His arms and every arrow struck him and He began to bleed. He just stood there and said nothing. I could see His face and I could sense His sorrow.
This encounter shook me and awakened me and caused me to embrace His forgiveness for me and the other person as well. His work is so complete in you and me that it has elevated us up above everything that we used to battle through. He fills us with a love for Him, for ourselves and for others. You will be able to forgive those who have hurt you because the blood of Jesus is your path through the scars and the shards of life. Blessings